Over the next 6 months, I plan on showing the process and allowing others to see it, the good, the bad, and everything in between when it comes to chasing your dreams. My goal is that you as the reader would have something resonate wihin you through this series that reminds you that you too are here for more and you have every tool you need to make that "more" happen. *Every thing will be pieced together as time goes. For now, those closest to me understand the imagery and the why's within each blog post.
There is no way of knowing who we truly are without facing our biggest fears.
Here I am a year later after having made it through the darkest part of my life having come out better than ever ready to face the dark yet again. Last time, I had no clue what to expect. I almost lost myself and some of those closest to me. This time, I go back through it with more to lose and much higher levels of pain to withstand. Just remember, green means go and red means stop. I willingly go this time knowing what lies behind the curtain rather than as a naive boy. Knowing that I might lose the things I care most deeply about, but fighting like hell to also keep them. I understand facing your fear is the only way to overcome it.
Why? Why even think about it? Why do it?
I’ve spent the last 10 years doing my own thing not caring about what others would think, not worrying about having a single dollar in the bank (albeit foolishly). Spending weekends alone stuck in my head allowing myself to hear my own self talk. Negating going to lunch with my friends like everybody else did in school. Forgoing much of any social life thinking that it held me back. None of that held me back though. It allowed me to meet myself and find my purpose. I’ve known I was meant for more. I wasn’t put here to just exist, to just be. Im supposed to face myself, my biggest opponent, and win at all costs necessary.
As I learn how to beat myself, I’ll be able to teach others also. I know that’ll be a lonely road at that point though as there will be less people I can talk to and relate to in order to meet my need for deep social connection. Some things aren’t understood through communication but rather only through experience.
If one person can take the leap, so can another. This leap, this one’s not just for me. This leap is for all of the people it’s going to help. For all the other people who didn’t believe they could do anything great. For the people who were supposed to uplift me, but left me in my journey. For the little kid who dreamed of flying around the world getting paid to speak. For all of the other small town dreamers. To be able to look at my own kids one day and tell them not to be scared to chase their dreams. To be proud of who I see looking back at me in the mirror. This leap is to fulfill what I’m here to do; teach hope.
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